Thoughts

Last night I woke up in the middle of the night to realize I was smack dab in the middle of a nightmare. I'm not going to go into detail about the dream, but basically something tragic happened to my brother in law, then something happened to his sister. The two were isolated incidents, so at least one didn't cause the other. These made me think pretty hard about what was going on. A few things that I realized is that not only am I going to be able to see them both next weekend at a wedding, but it reinforced how important they were in my life. With Jake out of town and my family not living close, it was as though my psyche was trying to tell me that I miss them, and I love them. My brother in law and his family have been a part of my life for more than half my life, so they are family. When I miss my family, I think of him, not just my sister. When the tragedy of the dream struck, it was as though the wind had been knocked out of me and I couldn't breathe because I was so scared of a life without them. Whether or not that means anything in waking hours, it did make me sit up in bed and think about their importance in my life. It's one of those things that I always know, but I don't take the time to think about, and apparently today it was necessary.